decisions

I've always considered myself to be a decisive person, always sure of what I want. God knows I had no problem deciding on this:

I have to give my Mom a lot of credit for this trait I own. She raised me to be very confident in myself. I've never been afraid to go after my dreams. But as you grow, what you want may not always be what's best. This is especially true when additional people make up the "me" in you. Before marriage I could be impulsive with my decisions. After all, it really only affected me and no one else. After marriage however, in making decisions you have to stop and think about how those decisions will affect the "two of us". For me, this was still fairly simple thanks to my easy-going husband. But after children are involved, it becomes much different. As a parent, you can no longer think of only yourself. Everything you do evolves around this child you've brought into the world. You are 100% responsible for their well-being. And so decisions about life must be made with these little ones as the top priority.


An unexpected opportunity has presented itself to me and I've been wondering why it's so difficult to make a decision.

And then I look at my son and realize, it's because I'm a Mom. I can do the typical "pros and cons" list, but what really matters is how will this affect my son. Will it be a positive thing for him? Will I, as his mother, be able to be the best possible mother I can be for him? If the answer could even be the slightest hint of a "no" to either of these questions then this decision is out of the question, just like that. For my son is everything to me (ok, ok, my husband matters a bit too...hahaha).


In my religion we have a special prayer for important decision making. It's a prayer that asks God to show us guidance in whatever decision is at hand. This prayer can be performed as many times as one would like. I've prayed it twice so far. :-)

So here I am...thinking, praying, pondering, wondering...trying to make a decision. Life has many roads to travel. For me my journey has a passenger (hubby) and a car seat in the back (my son). Even though I haven't made my decision just yet, I'm sure the road I choose will look something like this:

Easy, bright, full of possibilities

And don't worry, I'll be sure to share what I finally decide in the near future. ;-) I will leave you with one of my most favorite poems, one that has always helped inspire me.

photo: outdoors.webshots.com, by: jilliex0x0

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

The Road Not Taken, by: Robert Frost