stepping stones

With all that is happening in the world, it just doesn't feel appropiate to complain. And yet, I'm feeling a little down and out.

There are so many things getting at me lately.

My job dominates my life. On top of boring issues I won't go into, we wanted a raise. I, as well as some of my friends, looked into other options (some with better pay, some with better hours). I tried to leave. They didn't want me to go. They promised a raise, so I stayed. Well, they lied. We never got our promised increase. We have to renew contracts now for next year, I'm not sure what to do at this point.

Little guy's schooling has had many issues this year. I won't bore you with details. But I had to have a good talk with his teachers. There have been some small improvements since, but I'm really looking forward the end of the year. And I hate wishing time away, it goes fast enough as it is.

I'm not doing so well with a life that requires hired help. I hate having a live-in housekeeper. It's not personal, it's just that I don't like it. Too many things, so I won't elaborate. I hate having to have a driver. For God's sake, I know how to drive. I want to grab the stinking wheel from his hands and take over. Also, I'm sick of babying these people. Just to go out somewhere requires a million phone calls. And it's hard enough getting myself and little guy out the door on time. Imagine having two adults that you have to call and keep on in order to leave on time. And just so much more...so I'll stop.

Cultural things...I really won't go into that. Not now. But ugh, it's not always easy (as I've shared before).

I have baby fever. Is it because it's Spring? It is that little guy is no longer a baby (ok, he hasn't been for awhile...lol)? But I'm just not sure when will be a good time. I think family planning is not always good. Sometimes, we just need to relax and let things happen as God has planned and be content with that. But it's not always that easy now, is it?

And so here I am sounding incredibly selfish. But I'm being truthful. I know my problems are nothing compared to what's going on in the world right now. My heart aches for Japan. And, I wish the Middle East could get it's crap together and realize that division will never win, unity will always prevail.

So this is my little lecture to myself. Get over it, Kylie. Thank God for what you have. Your problems are just little stepping stones to get you through your journey.

Be thankful that your journey is so easy. For others have not just little stepping stones, they have mountains to climb. And now is not the time for you to feel blue. Be grateful and move on. One day you may appreciate these stepping steps and where they end up taking you.